Summing & Breaking

filling papers out for a doctor
‘list prior known diagnosis’
eleven illnesses sum me up
but really they break me down


 

Poetry is a way to express yourself and help people through things, but it is not the only way.  Please realize that you are not alone.  If you are feeling depressed, or having thoughts of suicide please contact someone.  You can always call for help

US Suicide Hotline 1-800-273-8255

or if you aren’t comfortable with that you can go online and get help here.  You are not alone.  You are not the only one, you matter, you are not a bother, and you are worth it.  Make the call, click the link, reach out to someone don’t fight the battle alone, don’t give into the night.

Short Fibro Pain Poem

overreacting nerves send agony through my body
pulsing pain where it has no right to be
don’t touch me; the nerves will overreact again


Poetry is a way to express yourself and help people through things, but it is not the only way.  Please realize that you are not alone.  If you are feeling depressed, or having thoughts of suicide please contact someone.  You can always call for help

US Suicide Hotline 1-800-273-8255

or if you aren’t comfortable with that you can go online and get help here.  You are not alone.  You are not the only one, you matter, you are not a bother, and you are worth it.  Make the call, click the link, reach out to someone don’t fight the battle alone, don’t give into the night.

 

Shorties 8/25/14

struggling swearing
i yell but
keystrokes sound sweeter



wtf is wrong with me
but, more importantly,
whytf can’t they fix it


 

Poetry is a way to express yourself and help people through things, but it is not the only way.  Please realize that you are not alone.  If you are feeling depressed, or having thoughts of suicide please contact someone.  You can always call for help

US Suicide Hotline 1-800-273-8255

or if you aren’t comfortable with that you can go online and get help here.  You are not alone.  You are not the only one, you matter, you are not a bother, and you are worth it.  Make the call, click the link, reach out to someone don’t fight the battle alone, don’t give into the night.

two mini poems

pain and terror
locking my body up
only movement are tears

 


forgetting again
concern filling me
what will the consequences be


 

Poetry is a way to express yourself and help people through things, but it is not the only way.  Please realize that you are not alone.  If you are feeling depressed, or having thoughts of suicide please contact someone.  You can always call for help

US Suicide Hotline 1-800-273-8255

or if you aren’t comfortable with that you can go online and get help here.  You are not alone.  You are not the only one, you matter, you are not a bother, and you are worth it.  Make the call, click the link, reach out to someone don’t fight the battle alone, don’t give into the night.

agony

disturbing pain
alters your thoughts
disrupting your plans
destroying your dreams


 

Poetry is a way to express yourself and help people through things, but it is not the only way.  Please realize that you are not alone.  If you are feeling depressed, or having thoughts of suicide please contact someone.  You can always call for help

US Suicide Hotline 1-800-273-8255

or if you aren’t comfortable with that you can go online and get help here.  You are not alone.  You are not the only one, you matter, you are not a bother, and you are worth it.  Make the call, click the link, reach out to someone don’t fight the battle alone, don’t give into the night.

puzzle poetry

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Poetry is a way to express yourself and help people through things, but it is not the only way.  Please realize that you are not alone.  If you are feeling depressed, or having thoughts of suicide please contact someone.  You can always call for help

US Suicide Hotline 1-800-273-8255

or if you aren’t comfortable with that you can go online and get help here.  You are not alone.  You are not the only one, you matter, you are not a bother, and you are worth it.  Make the call, click the link, reach out to someone don’t fight the battle alone, don’t give into the night.

sailing

lacking the capabilities
to traverse the
most dangerous of seas
i cling to a boat named
last chance
praying i find the strength in me
some how
to make it to the next sunrise


 

Poetry is a way to express yourself and help people through things, but it is not the only way.  Please realize that you are not alone.  If you are feeling depressed, or having thoughts of suicide please contact someone.  You can always call for help

US Suicide Hotline 1-800-273-8255

or if you aren’t comfortable with that you can go online and get help here.  You are not alone.  You are not the only one, you matter, you are not a bother, and you are worth it.  Make the call, click the link, reach out to someone don’t fight the battle alone, don’t give into the night.

losing battle

struggle
fight
writhe
wrench
claw
slide
grip
slip
scramble
fall
crumple
whimper
cry
fail


 

I finished the book How To Be Sick by Toni Bernhard; which I have been reading in regards to dealing with my chronic illnesses, [including my, anxiety, depression and fibromyalgia which are the only ones I feel comfortable discussing here].  If you have a chronic illness or are a caregiver to someone who is I highly recommend that book.   While the book does use a lot of Buddhist inspired techniques and terms the methods that they have are solid and the thoughts behind them make sense even if you choose to look away from that aspect.  Toni breaks everything down by definition of the words and how it works psychologically and I found it particularly helpful especially with my Fibromyalgia, which brings with it a lot of pain, physical and emotional.  To be honest when I was first diagnosed I might not have been ready for the book, but I wish I had this book 8 or 10 months sooner as it is a great asset to have and I can see how it can help me and how I can try to put it to use.   I will not suddenly become a Buddhist, that is not something that one book can do, but I feel that this book can help me find a way to face my challenges and struggles a bit better and that is all I can ask for.  A new way to look at things.


Poetry is a way to express yourself and help people through things, but it is not the only way.  Please realize that you are not alone.  If you are feeling depressed, or having thoughts of suicide please contact someone.  You can always call for help

US Suicide Hotline 1-800-273-8255

or if you aren’t comfortable with that you can go online and get help here.  You are not alone.  You are not the only one, you matter, you are not a bother, and you are worth it.  Make the call, click the link, reach out to someone don’t fight the battle alone, don’t give into the night.

 

Snared up in depression

nets cast out
caught again
ensnared struggling
making worse
growing weaker as i try
crushing despair
limbs weighted down
dragged down
twisting
i struggle
unable to move
lay my head down
back to the pillows
staring to nothing
staying in bed


Poetry is a way to express yourself and help people through things, but it is not the only way though.  Please realize that you are not alone.  If you are feeling depressed, or having thoughts of suicide please contact someone.  You can always call for help

US Suicide Hotline 1-800-273-8255

or if you aren’t comfortable with that you can go online and get help here.  You are not alone.  You are not the only one, you matter, you are not a bother, and you are worth it.  Make the call, click the link, reach out to someone don’t fight the battle alone, don’t give into the night.